peak hasn’t even started yet, & i am so burnt out 😪

i’ve posted about this before, it’s just not gotten any better. i’ve been on a late streak for the past like 2 months. this week it’s been everyday. i have like 25 hours UPT & less than 20 PTO but i feel like i’m running down a slippery slope but i lost my care to try & fix it. i never was the type of person to be late until i realized amazon dgaf, & will replace you anyways. i much rather leave earlier, but i force myself to stay since im late. i’ve tried getting trained elsewhere. i started in pack, got thrown into sort after two months (meanwhile theres people that have been packing for years but sure cross training is “mandatory” ..) i wish i didnt try so hard when i got here lol. i have realized the hardest workers get more work, & get glared at when they do one thing wrong. i started in problem solve but they don’t really put me over there, but i don’t really care for it anyways. i wanted to do pick or stow, although i know its more physically draining. idk how people can stay here for years. my 6 months will be next month. i’m afraid they aren’t going to keep me. i’m still white badge. theres people who got hired when i did & already got blue badge. mind you i have no write ups, but because they like to throw me in rebin (where my rate is the worst) my performance is fair. sometimes it really gets to me & it just feels “prison like”. i keep to myself because of a situation that happened at work, but i get so depressed seeing everyone talking to each other & having friends at the same time. i!’ exhausted no matter how much i sleep. i’ve even tried transferring to nights but because of prime around the corner there are no spots left. the thing is i can’t afford to find another job nor will i get paid as much for such easy work. honestly i think its the long hours & just the environment thats getting to me. im going on a two day trip 4 hrs away tomorrow & i couldn’t be more happier to get away from this place. once prime starts i’m really gonna feel the burn out & i’m not ready.