Should I feel embarrassed?

Idk if anyone saw my post yesterday but basically, long story short, my long distance ex (of 2 years) very coldly broke up with me a few months back.

I was clearly upset and showed that like I texted multiple times and he either ignored me or made it clear he didn’t want to speak to me. I had left a whole load of clothes and shoes about 50lbs worth and brand new Sephora stuff too at his because of baggage limits on the plane. I had to ask him repeatedly to ship them, offered to pay etc, 2 months ago he said he did and that they’d take 3-4 weeks to arrive.

After that we stopped speaking. I broke 2 months of no contact yesterday to ask him for a tracking number because my clothes still haven’t arrived. I’m so embarrassed because it probably seems like I’m trying to talk to him again, but I genuinely just want my clothes back 😢 anyway he didn’t even reply. Guess I’m not getting them back.