life before psychosis (vent)

I was 18 (i'm 21 now) going to school like normal excited to see my hallway crush every morning. Then suddenly I went to be treated abroad and came back when I was 20. It's been a year I'm getting better but the shift is crazy everything feels so weird now I no longer go the places I use to go. 3/4 years of my most important years gone. I feel completely invisible now. I have literally no energy left in me. All I do i scroll, ubereats, wake up late and look at old pictures of me from when I was 'normal' :( I want it back I want the old me. I had such a glow down lowkey