34 [M4F] Canada - Underwear model/finance bro. Navigating a midlife crisis

Good day to you too. I've been navigating some intricacies of my life as of late and staring down the barrel of my own mortality at 34. I realized I needed to take a few steps back to revaluate and get that poison out of my system.

About me:

Lightly tattooed, hobby underwear and fashion model, and corporate escape artist who does hybrid work. I have very active hobbies and surround myself with esteemed and "happy" people but I feel I'm underdeveloped for my life stage as all my peers are now married or have children. I'm not yet ready to keep pace and take the leap (more on that later). Settling is a cope.

I have a wide array of outfits in my wardrobe for gig days and I'm equipped to match your style. I like art, interpreting art, and refining aesthetics from my own perspective and stay current with an extensive skincare routine. People have referred to me as a KPop idol and they think I look 25.

I have a sport bike which I take out to the small windy roads every now and then to enjoy the freedom of maneuver with my body with the view that I'll regain consciousness and control of my head once this phase is over.

What I'm looking for:

You, Caucasian, under 24, like to be spoiled. You also have a knack to stay active, can turn heads wherever you go, and you're not looking for white-picket seriousness right away (that part can come later if we click beyond the shallow emotions). I'm not perfect with the Gen Z lingo but I can keep up.

What we can do for each other:

I spoil you with experiences, attention, and whatever else that makes your heart race. You make me feel that I didn't waste my 20s hustling in vain. I've left the social aspect of my life out for more than a decade and I want to get back into it, you know like a normal person.

Ideally (or not) you have some trauma, as do I. I've got plenty of damage but my baggage's already unpacked and reorganized. We can get heavy on the topic but from my life experiences, I'll gladly listen to your stories to let you know that you're not alone. Maybe this is an awkwardly phrased bit to trauma bond?