[F4F] Middle aged goonette

I'm looking to discuss experiences, and then maybe build a world and/or series of roleplays put of what I'm about to describe...

I came of age with the internet, and was never shy about porn or erotica. Pictures, stories, chats, as a young woman I was curious and would explore all these things. But then came marriage, kids, and a career. All of that fell by the wayside.

And then my kids learned to drive. Suddenly, I wasn't needed like before.

I remember it was a Saturday in the Fall. A little cool out. There was no one home. It was so quiet, I felt like my ears were ringing. I was bored, scrolling through Instagram, and something reminded me of an erotic story site I used to visit. Curious, I checked it out. It was still there.

I spent the next hour or so scrolling through the various story categories. Hotwife. Group. Taboo. Cheating. Big cocks. At some point, my hand found its way between my legs. First, over my clothes, then over my underwear. It sounds crazy, but I hadn't been wet like that in years. And then I heard the garage door open. Back to reality.

But the next weekend, I found myself alone, and engaged in the same activities. Stories, but images and videos now too. It was like being re-introduced to a long lost lover. I hadn't squeezed pleasure out of my body like this in a decade.

But the more I did it, the more I wanted it. Like any flowering addict, I engaged in increasingly risky behavior. Not just over my panties, but pulling them to the side, my crotch exposed and wet as I half lay on the couch scrolling through text. Not waiting for the house to be completely empty. Behind my desk at work during a quiet Friday afternoon. The craving was always there.

As you can imagine, this had lead to some close calls. It's also given me a strong desire for the real thing, to explore sex in a new and uninhibited way, a way I couldn't think about when I was younger, dating, looking for my future husband, career, and angling for the pampered suburban life I now enjoy. I downloaded tinder. I downloaded tinder? I delet5it just as fast.

Surely, I can't be the only one going through this. So message me. Let's talk. Let's be friends. Re-assure me I'm not going middle aged crazy.