Just so alone

I’m recently out of an amazing relationship - my soul is still pretty crushed (maybe I’ll write about that another time) - but I’m doing all I can to not jump impulsively back into the online dating apps in hope of just finding somebody to be with. It’s tough because I love having that connection with someone else. It’s also been a challenge not to reach out to other ladies I’ve dated in the past to just see how they’re doing, go to dinner, etc. Not in hope to rekindle a romance, but just to have someone to talk to and be with. But that seems like it would be pathetic, at least from my perspective/situation. Not that they’d know, but I would. Besides, if they were at all curious about me, wouldn’t they reach out? Oh well, no matter.

So I wait … I deal with my hurt and I throw myself into projects and other things here at my house to keep myself distracted. Thankfully(?) I have plenty of projects - way too many actually! Lol! It’s not easy, but I hope it’ll be better in the long run 🤷🏼‍♂️ I hope so anyway. Regardless, I am curious to see how not being with someone will be. I’ve always been one who went pretty quickly from relationship to relationship, so I’m hoping that this “down time” will ultimately be a breath of fresh air and open up some new perspectives for me.