My dad makes our mental illness a competition

Me and my dad both have mental illnesses. hes fucking violent while i have som-whatever hallucinations and delusions…???

I go to therapy and have a psychiatrist while he doesn’t and he makes fun of me for it.

He says stuff like, “Oh, you TRY to be crazy but im just crazier than u” no actually i dont want to be crazy dude i want to get better so i can enjoy my life.

He thinks im a pussy for only hurting myself
(that was in the past no need to send bitch ass cops again) and not others which is crazy to me???

I think im becoming more violent because of him in my high school. its all his fault. like i genuinely felt so much anger towards my random classmates i genuinely wanted to attack them
for no reason. (they r still assholes though)

This is why it took so long for me to get help. ive been like this since elementary school and my parents should’ve seen the signs but no, its not serious to them. me acting out is funny!

my dad has more trauma but idc why are we comparing it? i don’t fucking care about ur trauma so why give me it?

this is why i don’t take anything seriously anymore