Miserable

I started a new job this week. Long story short, I was on the hunt for 4 months before this so I know how lucky I am. This schedule is kicking my ass. It’s actually only a couple hours short of my usual wake up time and I’m going to bed early enough. I want to cry. I feel like a zombie in survival mode. I feel so stupid being so miserable so many people there love it and so many are wanting a job.