Idk if this relationship is normal

Okay hi everyone , I’m F20 he’s M21 , tldr is I’ve grown up in a very unhealthy environment, never seen an example of a healthy relationship, and at 18 got into a severely abusive relationship (TW but It was physical, sexual and emotional abuse ) so I basically have no idea what is healthy and what isn’t

Right now I’m in my bed next to my boyfriend . I saw him today for the first time this week and I won’t be able to see him again for like another week. He’s been ignoring me for hours because we were scrolling reels together and a drag queen came up for 0.5 seconds to which he said ‘ew’ . I obviously was like What? You just don’t like him bc he’s a drag queen? And he said no he just doesn’t find I’m attractive. Super weird but since then he’s been in MY bed in MY house ignoring me watching videos on his phone. I have work at 9am and like I said I won’t see him for like another week after this?? I don’t know if this is the straw that’s broken the camels back but I’m starting to feel like I’ve had enough.

In our relationship of 1 year he has given me chlamydia on purpose (at the very start when we met he knew he had chlamydia but had sex with me anyway) , cheated the entire time due to his porn addiction by sending and receiving nudes from girls on Snapchat . On my birthday last year he refused to come see me after I threw up at the hairdressers bc of the chlamydia medication even tho he was 100% free. Just this weekend we went and saw a football game together, afterwards when he was drunk he wouldn’t stop talking about rape and when I asked him to stop he refused. I walked away and instead of texting me or following me to see if I was okay he was just talking about football in a groupchat with his friends. I blew up at him the next day abt it and when he had me come to his house to ‘talk’ he told me I was over emotional and blew everything out of proportion. He broke up with me in October because I was texting him about my alcoholic mum day drinking on a Sunday and getting into a random car and he told me it was boring . After breaking up with me he BEGGED for me back for months and when I finally got back with him he refused to remove a girl he’d been talking to, then talked to her behind my back for weeks, and even was still checking her Instagram in march. He also was ‘bored’ and went on Omegle and started flirting with girls .

Sorry for the long vent, and I think it’s pretty obvious I should break up with him from all of that. I know I sound like one of those Reddit posts where it’s like ‘my boyfriend hates me and treats me like shit, should I end things?’ But honestly I’ve grown up facing abuse after abuse after abuse, I have never had a stable person In my life, and after my last relationship where the abuse was so so extreme this one is at least not as bad. I don’t know if good people truly do exist and if I could ever find someone who would love me the way I dream of being loved. He’s also funny, charming , calm, sweet, and very affectionate usually. But the moments where I get ignored for hours in my own house for the small amount of time we’re gonna see each other just for..? Making a comment . Idk.

If you’ve read this thanks , I have no one in my life I can turn to for relationship advice as my previous abusive relationship has left me with 0 friends and I have no family aside from my mum who is abusive and an alcoholic . So yeah lol . Advice or words of wisdom please :-)