Can't stay away from my true nature for too long

I keep making these accounts so I can rub myself to the filth on here and all the dirty men in my DMs. But then I try to deny that's who I am and delete the account. I abandoned this account 4 months ago but even in between my holes getting stretched and used I still couldn't stop finding ways to make myself cum to filthy porn on here. So now I'm back rubbing to my trauma and perversion. I hate it here and I never wanna leave