Engagement exhaustion

Everyone says this and I never believed it until it was me. It genuinely feels like everyone in my social circle is getting engaged or newly married. I am the only person in my inner circle who is merely a girlfriend. Never mind on social media - pictures of rings and weddings and babies practically every day.

I’m happy in my relationship and it truly is the best partnership I’ve had. I have no complaints and I am in no rush to get married. But with the constant reminders around me, I can’t help but feel like I am running behind.

I feel slight twinges of embarrassment when I mention “my boyfriend” meanwhile everyone else has a husband. It makes me not want to share things about my life because my relationship is no longer deemed as important or as serious.

I don’t know. It’s wearing on me. I don’t know if I need to make changes to my social circle, get off of IG, go to therapy, suck it up, cry…

For now I rant into the abyss.