Questioning myself, next steps?

Hi there. Throwaway account because Im not quite ready to come out yet because Im not sure and Im not sure if people I know might somehow run into a post here from my main account.

So I (24AMAB) have been questioning for a while if I may be Genderfluid or TransFem. Im also acespec but Ive started questioning that now aswell so yay me.

So to get to the point. Ive been questioning my gender identity for a while now. Ive had dreams/fantasies of living life as a woman where I feel happier for a very long time. And I used to play as female characters in games my friends wouldnt play because I always felt that the body shape lends itself more to dressing up pretty. Now more recently Ive been playing FF14 and some gacha games (as a F2P, cant afford and wont whale on those games). In FF14 I have a female name and my raidgroup calls me by said name which feels natural. And in the gacha/mobile games Ive been female presenting in chat just because I felt like it. And it also felt nicer and slightly more at easy. Ive also grown my hair out because I kind if like it.

Now to me, these have all just been little things that kind of give me moments of slight joy, but the main thing came a few days ago. I was cleaning out some space in my appartment and found some of my exes old clothes. I decided to put on the bra with some socks for no real reason other then to try. And it felt natural? I upped the weight a bit by swapping socks for little bags of grains and it felt oddly comforting. So now Ive been in an anxiety ridden spiral trying to figure out if I may actually be trans (which, lets be honest writing this down I also see the line) but mostly a lot of fear. Im not sure how my friends would react, I only really have 3 left in my life at this point (one of which is sliiightly transphobic). But Im more concerned about my parents. I know that where I live you need someone close to you to join you for the psych eval and my parents, especially my dad, never really knew me and are all -phobics and -cists in the book. Im mostly worried my dad would beat me up or completely reject me. (I live on my own luckily but I have a spare key at their place) Especially after finally making progress in repairing our relationship and trying to make him see sense.

So my question is, what next? My head is still rushing even hours later and Im not sure who to talk to or what I should look for. I did shave my spotty excuse for a beard + goatie off and Im planning to try and shave my legs to see if it makes me feel better about myself aswell. I have a more twinkish build (tall and never gained weight no matter what I ate) and somewhat soft facial features (other then my nose and partially my browline) so trying to present femme shouldnt be too difficult but Im not sure what exactly I want either? Ive been flipflopping between fine and hating my body so Im not sure if its full transfem or just fluid? Im not in the US so US specific medical advice wont be of too much help, but I can somewhat translate it over to what I could do locally.

Sorry for the rambly post. Its extremely late, Im tired and cant sleep due to the anxiety. I wanted to type this out and hope for some advice. I looked at a bunch of other similar posts and read some of the resources linked. But I dont have anyone to really talk to about this at this time and I want to just hear someone elses opinions and advice.