Gore videos

So over the last couple of months i’ve found myself watching and actually trying to find different gore videos to watch. not as such to go back and repeatedly watch them but if i see one ive already watched i’ll go find another. i feel guilty when watching these videos because surely it can’t be good for the brain right. i know how it’s kind of normalised for people to be desensitised, especially after having social media access at a young age, but i do feel this weird way after watching them and i know that its just because as a human being i am interested to see and know, and what to avoid i guess lol.

I have AuDHD, anxiety and possibly OCD, and it’s made me because aware of this issue because for example when i’m in the car, more than usually ( because it’s always been an issue ) i will have intrusive thoughts of the car crashing. and i will be watching videos and expect the worst to happen because of my brain lol. help how do i stop.