I'm struggling again and I have no access to help and nobody who supports me at home.

(Just as a quick disclaimer for information ahead of time... I am 23, I live with my father and brother, I live 6 miles from the nearest town (which is a small town), I do not have my driver's license, and I do not have anywhere near enough savings to move out on my own.)

Over the last few months I've almost reliably been on a cycle where nearly every month I have what feels like some sort of crisis. I'm currently in that time again and struggling a lot...

Today especially I have been having a very hard time. I have explicitly told my dad and brother that I'm having a difficult time right now and explained how I feel and I was completely blown off. I'm currently laying in my bedroom with my door locked because I'm at a loss for what to even do anymore.

I don't have access to a therapist at the moment because I can't do virtual therapy (I've tried and it doesn't work for me)... I don't have in person support at all in my life (I have friends but they don't live nearby, I can text/call sometimes but they're all busy a lot of the time and I don't see them often)...

I genuinely just don't know what to do anymore... I know what I need to start getting better (support from those around me and therapy), but that's currently not possible... I'm just at a loss right now.