i hate everything

20y male
first of all i hate my family that is full of shit when i mean The family i mean the cousins and far cousins by blood ,and i hate my body that it feel like humiliation ritual and how weak it is and i hate my country and society that its full of shit ( i live in gulf arab countries )and i don’t belong to anywhere an i will piss on my family grave cause i hate them and i am asshole that is a loser and i will go to hell because it always never meant the likes of me to enter heaven i think even god make me so i be some joke to him and the angels to laugh and example to people that don’t be that guy i lost faith in my family and country that strips my nationality and i don’t mind this country burn to dust cause i don’t belong to this land when i was 7y , i know when you read all this bullshit i wrote you would say wtf is this guy typing? english is not my first language and i am bad at writing my feelings so good luck with that.