Not sure if it was molestation

I was a toddler, n the memory feels weird. I dont know if its real, I have no idea, it feels like it. I think I was the one initiating, I was 4. Mom kissed me n shoved her tongue in my mouth, I think. Everytime I think about it its all consistent, never changes, but its fuzzy.

Then at 10, dad shoved his hands in my underwear when he was drunk. I wanted an hug. I went away

Always at 10, or 11, memory of a pool, then in a room changing my swimsuit, someone , a man, enters, I think my uncle, the memory cuts and it goes to me in the mini pool again, but when I think about it it feels weird n uncomfy

Am i overreacting , I think that I deserved every single thing, I have been hypersexual since i was a toddler

I dont feel too bad, not at all maybe, i think n feel numb , was it molestation, i dont know , im not sure , i dont know why im not sure , it just feels so insignificant n like it was just like a normal day

feels weird