Unmet Support Needs

I’m fairly low support needs, but most of my support needs are not being met. It’s ruining my life. Unless I can ask for precisely what I need when I need it, I don’t get my support needs met. I’m not able to easily verbalize all my needs! I wish I were. And trying just causes me to shut down much of the time.

I’m not ok. I have no emotional support, no real social support (like with making friends and stuff), and little support with some of the day to day living skills I need.

It doesn’t help that I feel completely unheard. For years I’ve tried to ask for things I want and need, only to have them either outright rejected, ignored, or forgotten. I am not really comfortable asking for things, any things, any more. I just sit quietly wishing someone would show me I’m safe asking for things. It just takes so much out of me to ask and be ignored that I don’t see the point.

And you might say I need new people. I suppose you are right. But I don’t have the faintest idea how to begin looking for a better support system. I’m way too swamped.

And you may say I should just rely on myself and not need other people. I am disabled. I have support needs. I cannot make myself not have support needs. I cannot turn off needing other people’s assistance. Please don’t shame me for this.

I just don’t know how to go on. I can’t keep going on like this, but idk how to make real change. I don’t have the energy to do it myself. I already feel like I’m screaming into a void asking for help. I can’t make change on my own.