I thought medication was supposed to help

But it made everything worse. It's sad. She got on medication specifically because she wanted to stabilize for me. Our relationship had some bumps beforehand, but nothing bad. She starts seeing a psychiatrist who diagnosed her bipolar and then prescribed her Vyvanse and Lexapro. I've seen her hypomanic plenty and I can handle it fine. But after these medications she did a complete 180. You know the story. Ghosting. Discard. Affair. Currently 2 months of no contact. I think this is her first legitimate manic episode. It's been 8 months of hell.

The more I learn about bipolar, the more I understand and sympathize with her. Which makes me willing to give her one more chance. But I don't know if I need to keep my heart open or not. I was about to propose too. It sucks that the very thing that gave us hope is the same thing that ruined our relationship. I read so many stories about their SO's refusing to get medicated, but my issues are because my partner refuses to stop her current cocktail. It feels like there's no end in sight to the nightmare.