Fellow Buddhists who have OCD, how do you practice or meditate with the constant intrusive thoughts?

Welcome anyone who has advice, especially if you have personal experience with OCD. If not, please be kind.

I recently got diagnosed with OCD but I have suffered from it for many years. I have always struggled with ego dystonic disturbing intrusive thoughts, and it terrifies me greatly when I think I am a bad person or my thoughts are actually my own.

Started on meds now as it was getting debilitating because I spend my day on compulsions.

But I find myself unable to meditate or practice without the intrusive thoughts making themselves known to me.

I know it’s normal for thoughts to surface when meditating but mine are often disturbing and causes great distress or guilt. Not to mention I struggle with religious/moral OCD too.

So, has anyone managed to control their mind even with OCD?

I truly adore the triple gem and it’s terribly sad my mind has been trying to use that to cause me pain.