Fuck myself

I am a piece of shit. A falsity. I am energy wasting. I have nobody. I reach for air. Every attempt at normality is self sabotaged, marking me tainted. Positivity is at an all time low in everything around me, making life miserable. How do I stay happy? How do I stay true to who I am? I am unworthy. A hypocrite. I push and pull only to find I’m the resistance. I do not belong. I am disgusting. I smile and show face, gets me nowhere. No drive. No ambition. No love. I’m better than this. Am I? Who was I? Who will I become? I’m a piece of shit. A trial and error. Failed abortion. My existence is a disgrace to the creator. I am empty. Alone. I can’t connect, I can’t relate.