Pa rant lang. Insights are okay too

I (31 M) professional, am still living with my parents because I am paying their cc debt that accumulated due to bad business desicions, my college fund and got to worse due to covid.

My parents are no longer working and our old business is no longer operating since covid.

A little background before I vent out. I was a rebel child when I was in college. Never wanted my course (nursing) but finished it because it was my parent's dream for me and it bevame my calling narin (as I have realized on my college years.) The funded me on prestigious schools like UST (which I failed because di ko pinapasukan) and La salle (which I also failed for the same reason), then another school in uaap (kasi nakaaway ko yung dean and a proff, yes I had major attitude iasues) and finally graduated nursing in another UAAP school last 2019. I became a working student when I started continuing my college on my 3rd university because my father (working at that time) disowned me due to the things I have done (I know I had no reason, its because of my issues) after transferring to my 4th university, I stopped going to college (1 semester remaining) because it felt like I don't really see myself as a nurse and would like to figure things out and focus myself on my current job (BPO).

Fast forward, they(my parents) told me that I should continue my course and stop working. I told them I would rather work bevause I have no motivation to study and by means no funds to pay for my tuition and daily expenses but they said they will shoulder my tuition and expenses just to finish nursing and so I did. I had the realization thst nursing was really my calling during that time but that is another story for another time.

Covid came and I was already employed in my first job as a nurse in the hospital. At first we were okay since I was working and was able to provide income to our family (family of five). My sister and brother were still students at that time. What I did not know is that both my parents were in crippling debt due to the investments they made, the expenses that we were using since my salary barely covers it, and the interest due to the multiple accounts that they had being unpaid.

When they told me that they needed help, nanluma ako. In order for em to be able to pay my mother's cc debt alone, I need to provide 14k per cut off ( my salary that time was 16k per cutooff minus tax) since I was the onlynone working at that time. Since i wanted to repay them, I helped them. Then my father as well needed help because he also had debts that needs to pay (way much bigger than moms on multiple accounts, millions as he had shown me countless of times). He was laid off from work, business was closed and the only source of income that we had was me and my job. Because of that, I had to do gigs and other side hussles in order to meet ends.

To be frank, I did not even know how I manged to go through that time but moving forward, we paid some of itthrough the time but there still are some since the only ones working are me, my sister and my brother. My sister's(bunso) job is a nurse in a private hosp and my brother was unable to finish his college but is working now.

I still need to provide 14k per cut off ( now I have 15k on the 15th and earn 20k+ every 30th) to be able to help my parents and help our household. Here is how we divide our contributions (me: paying off debts, sis and bro: paying what the house need and other things like food, electricity, etc).

Don't get me wrong. I am okay with giving my parents my salary with the type of person that I was when I was in college and as repayment for the sacrifices they have made for me. I am always happy to help and provide whenever I can.

But here now is the problem. I met my gf now back when I was a rookie nurse. She knows what my lifenis and what kind of burdens I carry yet I heard nothing from her. She only commented abour my family when she accidentally read the comment my mom made about her which shw did not like at all because it was my mom belittling the person who took care of her. (That is the ossue with my parents. They immediately jump into conclusions and does not trust anyone else, even our blood relavies. Always have a side comment to thenlifestyle of others). We(me and my gf) are now 5 years together and we have had our ups and downs. My mother still dislikes her and she to her. Another habit thatI hate is that my mom goes through all of my stuff, even personal. If she sees my back pack, she takes a look inside of it. She sees my wallet, she scans it and takes a look what is inside of it.

Last 2 years ago, I was planning on studying a different language in order for me to work abbroad to help pay off the debt fastrr and to help my brother finish his college and for that I needed a tablet for me to study on since it will be online and it will be more convenient for me since it is bigger than my phone and i would like that as a gift for myself as well. Sad thing is that I do not have the money so I asked for my mother to borrow her credit card. That table that I wanted was just 19k (honor) and I told her that i will use it to study whenever I am not in my parent's house, which I currently am, and that I wull still pay for it. We argued because she told me it was not a necessity but she gave in after hours of convincing and begging. I was happy since she(mother) agreed. I had already finished paying for that tablet btw. My forrign language training is okay. On weekends, I am at my parent's house, at weekends, I am with my girlfriend's place (she rents a condo). Last monday, I told my GF that she can borrow my tablet if she wants because i know she likes watching movies and that I'll be there in the weekend anyways to use it on my language training (i use a laptop at my parent's house whenever I am there). My mother went through my stuff without my consent and asked where ny tablet is. Knowing her, I told her not to worry about it and that it is just there. But she kept pestering me on where it is until I slipped and told her I left it with my GF. She got mad and called her names again and when I told her that I was the one who insisted it, she called me names and told me how foolish I was because taht tablet was my personal gadget and that I should never allow anyone to borrow it. I get it that it had my emails and accounts on that laptop but nothing can be used there against me by my gfand she is my GF. She knows everything that is going on with me. Ye does not know jy account but she can open itbecause i do not have any other convos beside from my friends which she knows of. I had nothing to hide. As for emails, i do not have anything to hide nor is sensitive enough for my eyes only. We(me and my parents) got into a heated argument because I defended my GF since she had nothing to do with it and that I was the one who left my tablet and told her that she can use it to watch movies. I am trying my best bot to asnwer back as I am still angry as of the moment.

So tell me, abyg?