I feel Like…

I constantly feel like I’m much too awkward and much too sensitive for everyone around me. It literally pains me to leave my house and constantly present myself to others when I always feel slightly incompetent or like I don’t know what I am doing.

Others seem to have such a strong self definition. Mine feels like it’s constantly changing from moment to moment. This can make me react more slowly… taking long times to respond so I can deeply attune to myself and find why I am feelings, what I am feeling.

This goes into any conversation or interaction I have. I have to constantly remind myself not to think too much if I want to enjoy any social interaction.

But if I do, I find the opposite participant gets upset and. exhausted eventually by my every conversation ending with me blabbing of how their tone hurt me.

Am I deeply selfish and too self-focused. Or am I just too much for most people (like everyone).