31NB | USA, Looking for a long term friend who wont bully me.

First, i just want to say thank you for clicking on my post, it means a lot even if you choose to never speak to me or if you just glanced it and i wasnt for you. At least you gave me a chance of your time, so thank you. ive been trying to find a kind friend with enough free time to spend with but everyone is either too busy or just doesnt like me. I have no self esteem and absolutely zero confidence, the feeling i feel would be called Desolation.

A lil about me. Im a Capricorn, INFP-T, Year of the dog, Anxious Attachment, and afraid of many things. I stay up a lot, and sometimes don't sleep. Im very timid, shy, but also quirky, silly, and randomly hyper at times, im also a furry and a little, hopefully thats okay. I get bullied so often for any reason. im just so tired of being bullied/betrayed/ghosted/etc, is it to much to ask for just a true friend? i wish more ppl were kind, but if you dont fit their click then they dont care about you or your feelings. that is how people are. I hope to find someone kind one day that will stay by my side for once instead of leaving or hurting me.

Favorite Game: Haste

Favorite Animal: Feline

Favorite Movie: A Silent Voice

Favorite Color: Cherry Blossom Pink

Favorite Anime: Reincarnated as a sword (Fran)

i feel like disappearing but im trying my best to hang in there. all i want is a kind friend who doesnt judge me for being myself, someone to text/chat with regularly and someone to play games together with. I dont care about looks, height, weight, skin tone, voice, or anything like that. i only care about kindness and routine, the more you talk to me, or try to spend time with me, the more i will forever love and stay by you, but if the person ghosts a lot, or rarely ever talks, we might drift to far and then i will respectfully say goodbye with a message to give closure before removal.

[Warning: Please i beg you to those who keep the "Invisible" on disc, to please do not add me on there, i have a huge fear of being ghosted due to past experiences, so if you are the type to do that, i would rather just stick to reddit chat.]

Please don't forget to eat and hydrate and thank you again for taking the time to read my post, even if you just skimmed it i appreciate you so much. Please stay safe and dont give up, even if we cant get out of the abyss, sometimes finding that one special person who will sit in the dark with you can be the difference between reaching that limit, or anchoring yourself before the line to help you find a new path, a less painful one, warm and bright, hopefully filled with love and happiness even if its just one person, you both can be each other's lifelines during dark times.