No longer feel joy in life

I’ve been mentally stuck for years. I’ve been a college student and I have no passion or joy in what I do. Even with my hobbies I have lost interest. I’m tired of feeling empty all the time. I try too hard to impress others by mimicking other people’s interests to win them over. I put on too many masks and act like a chameleon in order to keep “friends”.

I have no path in life. I can handle a job and college but I have no life. My friends just ghosted me after a while and been having an existential crisis.

Whenever someone compliments me on my work or what I do (like my drawings.) I feel nothing. If someone insults me I don’t feel anything. Just detached.