What do I do?

Don't even try to put me down when I say this shit, but I'm so serious, I wanna be a rapper. I want this dream, this isn't a phase I've had this dream since I was 12, and now a few years have passed, but times are really hard for my mother rn with money, and she just isn't happy, but I feel God telling me I can do this if I work for it. He be putting vids on my tt fyp. I didn't even ask for motivating me, inspiring me, but where do I start? I make music, but where the fuck am I able to just GO and put out shit work with people like Clams Casino? I'm deadass he's the closest prod I know of to where I live. Music is the only constant that has saved my life. It was the sole presence standing by me when I had absolutely nobody else, and when the world misunderstood who I am. Now, I need to know how to transition from making music in isolation to launching a legitimate career. I want this to be my job, it's the only thing that's helped me in my life, the only thing that was there for me when I had and have nobody when I feel the world dont understand me. I want this to be my profession, my legacy, and my way out. I am ready to work; I just need like a blueprint to execute. I don't wanna hear anything about odds of making it or nothin