I was in a throuple in 2024, I had been dating one of the guys for 2,5 years and we started dating a third guy. A few months after this I started treatment for vaginismus that I had developed because of CSA from 7 to 11 years old

I started getting treatment and the guy I had been dating longer demanded to be the first to have penetrative sex with me 

the relationship went downhill from there because I was mortified and stopped trusting him and the new guy was extremely manipulative and I was being constantly psychologically tortured. He made me extremely emotionally dependant on him. One day he told me he wanted to see me get penetrated sex by the guy I had been dating longer because he would get off to it and I agreed. It felt like getting raped 

one day I confided in the new guy I was afraid of having sex with the other guy now because I was afraid he was going to penetrate me against my will, and this made him get into a huge fight with me because he got offended for the other guy because how could I think that of him

at some point they forced me to perform a fetish I hated that the guy I had been dating longer had and it was traumatizing 

they proceeded to psychologically torture me for a few months and broke up with me

when I told all this to a friend we had in common, she pretended to feel such sympathy for me but kept being their friend. When I confronted her a few weeks later she acted like I was being hostile and toxic to her. I cut her off my life

I had C-PTSD flashbacks multiple times every day for the longest time after this. Thankfully Im surrounded by amazing people now and Im loved and cherished. 

Come to think of it, I havent had a flashback in a long time :)

something I drew in january 2025 because my ex saw me as nothing but a piece of meat