Need someone to talk to

My best friends sister passed away from cancer. Obviously that is traumatic and tough especially because we are all pretty young and I have never dealt with losing a friend like this much less my best friend’s sister.

In the day leading up to her passing, my best friend didn’t respond to any of my text and I just reached out. Let her know I was there anything she needed I would provide and then the next week at the funeral I showed up we did our thing and we kind of went on like normal texting and checking in.

Suddenly about two weeks ago we were in the middle of a conversation and she just stopped responding and I haven’t received a response since. Obviously I know it’s pretty normal to be exhausted by talking to people and not want to respond to people, but I know for a fact that she’s going out with other friends and going to get together and she’s posting on social media.

I can’t help but feeling like I’m doing something wrong and we are supposed to be going to an event together in a few weeks (paid for) and I’m like literally unclear if that’s even gonna happen.

I just don’t know what to do because I’ve texted her a couple of times just saying I love her and I care about her and then today I was like I’m going to send a search party out for you. I need to know if you’re OK and then a couple hours later I was like I might just show up to your house in a little bit and clean and you can ignore me and do whatever but I really just don’t know what to do.

I’m really worried and I know this is normal but I also just like don’t understand and I’m grieving a loss of my friend (her sister) but it’s very very different because it’s actually her sister.

I just need advice on what to do and how to move forward so I can stop being sad about it and stop crying.