I'm a screwed up 80's kid

I never really got how bad we were ignored in the 80's. Like how mental health was never really talked about. I had an older brother that I lost to suicide when I was 18.

I got zero counciling, no real support, no nothing. I took 3 weeks off school, 2 because of winter break and went back to school like everything was normal. No one asked I'd I wanted to talk to someone. If I was ok.

And what is even more fucked up, no one talked to me about my mental health. Not even when I took up cutting. And yes, I wore long sleeves, ribbons, and even a leather bracer to cover the bandages. But not every day

I know there were teachers that saw, even my own friends, we just.....didn't mention it. My own mother......

Anyways. I'm doing OK. I'm medicated, I had a regular therapist for many, many years, I'm loved very much by my partner, and i know he supports me. I guess it just bothers me that mental health was never a thing to talk about.