I feel like I'm falling apart again

I had so many good weeks and the last two i just cant do anything right. I've went from bathing everyday to maybe twice if im lucky. I cant seem to bring myself to do erp and not doing it makes me feel like I'm lying, like a waste of time and energy.

It makes me question if I even deserve the support from my therapist. I feel so ridiculous even typing this, I'm crying over dumb stuff.

I sobbed today because my pizza bun had a tiny mold spot and I had to throw the whole pack away despite the others being fine.

I used two can openers to open four cans because they couldnt be used on two different food items.

I dont know what I'm doing or what to do anymore.

I dont even want to go to my therapy tomorrow. I dont want to take my meds, I just want to know what to do.