i miss having a fwb

Sometimes i hate that im so peaky but i have to because well.. i just know what i want and dont want. So, Idk if its because im ending lady days lol or its just one of those days where one feels lonely and exhausted but i miss this guy i saw twice. Back in Nov and beginning of may. The way he made me feel when we talked and the way i felt when he screwed me 2/3 times those nights gosh I miss how he was a little drunk after the bar and on his way here just to make me his, I miss his hands, the way he kissed me, even told me "ily" a couple of times this last time and lordy that made me feel some type of way. Now i know neither of us was looking for something more than sex and i knew that but i wanted more, not love but more time with this person in bed. After all the shit ive been put through he made me feel alive.