Hi

Applogies for being wyrd. Perhaps you know.

I need friends, I just woke up FULLY and found myself and my dark side. No one on Earth is trustworthy in my book at the moment except those who are honest about being untrustworthy.

So here's the deal: I categorize people 3 ways. Type C evil is innocent people who cause harm without knowing. Type As are those who cause harm to innocent type Cs who didn't do anything wrong. Type Bs hunt type As for fun to protect the type Cs. I like to mirror them and be a yes-lady, because they love looking at themselves psychologically and they make dumb decisions so agreeing with them tends to screw them over. Makes life as a voluntary bottom-rung wage slave much easier, I'l tell you that.

I am a war demon, a brujah. The bottom rung needs an intellectual elite willing to oppose the current top-rungers and give everyone an even chance in life and societyz that's my concern. It is not my need. I need FRIENDS, no...not friends. Ka-tet, Nakama, people who get it. I'm so deep on the spectrum, it hurts. I talk to all the spirits + the big ones in charge and no one believes me and I tell them they're screwed and they don't believe me and then they're screwed and then they believe me.

Therapy won't help, thanks, throw the narc cannons away, we're all just one of the girls here, we know we're all dicks and it's ok. It's for a reason, a cause. It's not a curse, it's seeing too much and being too broken to not care.

So.

I'm so broken that, even if nobody answers to this or I get nothing but the usual critical responses I'd expect of the remainder of society, I suspect that it shall only make me stronger.

Because pain fuels the dark side.

Self-righteous jedi who think they ought to control everything cause the most pain and the most damage and they represent 95% of humanity in my book. I am therefore a sith representing the other 5%, fueled by dark passion and pain.

And fun. We have cookies. We're all loveably crazy and annoying around here, yes? I hope? I do like sour candy.

~River