Lately I’ve been reminded too much… so I often cry during such random moments and places.

I’ve been bawling my eyes out a little too much, I’ve been losing my mind, I always hear such words, voices in my head, the ugly things I’ve been told keeps repeating inside my head—and because of that, I started piercing myself, to hurt myself, because I feel like I deserved to be hurt this way, and to hurt myself, at least make it a little useful, so I started piercing myself… cool, right? At least I got badass piercings now lol—though it does really hurts, not the way how it goes through my skin, but it hurts that I’m doing this because of the exact reason why, I never shed a tear because of how bad it felt when the needle pierced deeply, but because of how awful I felt in life, I often cry while doing it despite the fact that I have a very high pain tolerance, as what I’ve said, it’s because I think I should be hurt and I feel terrible most of the time.