I’m a top who has been thinking about bottoming

I started as a “side” then I started topping.

A few months ago, at a massage (maybe more about this next time), the masseur rubbed the head of his cock on my hole and pushed against it a few times. At that moment, I really felt like saying “fuck me” but I didn’t.

Since then I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it, but never acted on it. Just continued on with side fun and the occasional topping.

This week, however, I finally decided to finger myself and fuck it felt so good. I was able to get 4 fingers in. I have been thinking about getting a dildo all day.

I think it might be inevitable that I will take a cock up my hole one of these days, although I still enjoy topping.