Men deserve better

Men are honestly shortchanged. I am a highly chaotic individual, alternating between being completely brainless and being incredibly defiant, which is a terrible way to behave toward guys. Having total control over how I handle people when I can't even govern my own impulses is wrong, and I despise that flaw in my character. My sole focus should be submission and keeping things entirely effortless for them. I want to apologize for any moment I didn't treat guys with the absolute reverence they merit as the higher authority.