Just Sad.

Hard day. Really sank in….I’m small. "Average," is now small, so what the hell is an average joe meant to do?
Trying to "just get over it," & trying to develop some semblance of confidence. And yet, it’s all fruitless. I’ll still be tall, handsome, & small-as-fuck. Canon fodder.
How is one meant to balance suicide ideation & a naive will to live?
Just grieving the life I thought I’d have. And yeah, it is because of my dick. Absolutely.