Missed experiences

It really sucks that someone can steal your entire childhood, and no matter what you do, you can never get it back. And now, I’m getting to spend my early adulthood trying to recover from everything that happened, so it feels like my life still isn’t mine, and I’m still losing everything. Life feels like a giant game of catch up, but without getting to catch up on anything and just having to meet everyone else where they are without all the “right” tools. I get so upset about it. It just never feels like it’ll get any better, and that my entire life will just be lost because of a person who should have never been allowed to be a parent. I hate that it’s all still taking time/experiences from me, that it feels like they’re still taking things from me. I don’t know how to let go. I’m nearly 23, which I guess is young ish, but I feel infinitely older, yet simultaneously years behind my peers. I just want to feel in place and not like I will miss out on everything forever. When is it my turn to feel like a person lol