I have been preparing for a cute get together for the past 2 weeks and 2 days ago he canceled...

Today i was supposed to have this cute get together with this guy... we planned this about 2 weeks ago. Things we're great between him and i..

But 2 days ago i kind of spiraled.. we would have incredible high hot close moments then suddenly cold silence for hours back to back... it made me emotionally unstable...

As im also a 23y/o single mom. Im already sleep deprived (which I'm okay with etc.) But when it comes to inconsistencies i cannot handle that...

Anyways so he disappeared more and more but this time he was gone for a while... and i freaked out... i spammed him and tried to explain where i was coming from...

But.. i guess i reminded him of his ex... (he told me that that moment reminded him of his toxic relationship he had before me..)

Long stort short, there's nothing i can do about him not wanting to be with me anymore... but now im constantly reminded of him as i had been preparing for 2 weeks...

All the new little details around me, I've bought movies we could watch (including real steel😩), i finally finished my (new) interior. I had planned to do that for a while but he motivated me enough to actually get it done.. it looks AMAZING now.. but he's not here for me to share it with..

And there are a bunch of other things...

I can't seem to settle enough to look past his absence... it makes me truly sad as i really liked him..

This weekend was supposed to be romantic and calm... we were supposed to smoke, make dinner, watch movies, do self care in adult ways... like ugh..

The hell do i do with this... im not even the type to fall inlove because im often anxious for various reasons... let alone plan a romantic weekend for over the past 2 weeks!! Just for it to be canceled 2 days ahead😩😩😩😩😩

Help....