no matter what i do, everyone hates me

i'd like to start this with saying i have no intentions to harm myself or others, i just need to vent.

i feel like no matter what i do, everyone's going to hate me and think im a horrible person. everyone gets so angry at me for no reason and calls me crazy and insane even though i use my dbt skills and im very respectful, and have been effectively stopping splits. no matter what i do, im always doing something wrong and nobody wants me around. i feel like everyone's lives would be better without me.

i'm transgender (ftm) and my family isn't very accepting, and if i try and bring up how what they're doing negatively impacts me i get ostracized. my grandmother even told me im intolerant and she no longer wants any type of contact with me. i told my mother and she called me a liar, and then when she got upset with me earlier used the same words my grandmother did. "you turn everything into a debate".

my brother screamed in my face and cussed me out today and said he hates me because i made a joke about my dogs stealing only my socks and not his, because he thought i was accusing HIM of stealing my socks. i have moved out of my home and across the country and go back home for breaks, mainly to help out my family with bills and the house. i have been driving my little brother around and helping out by putting away his laundry since both of my brothers have depression and can't do it themselves sometimes. after i tried to deescalate the situation, he said i was trying to be a victim and kept cussing me out. i even told him i wasn't mad at him, and he just kept coming at me. i ended up splitting and screaming back at him, but i walked away after less than 3 seconds. my other brother came to comfort me and told me he wasn't mad at me and he loves me.

my fiancé's (ftm) whole family hates me for no reason as well. i try so hard to be nice and welcoming, i buy his sister gifts and invite her everywhere with us. i feel so out of place and unwelcome when around his family because im korean and they're mexican – his mom speaks primarily english but when im around will almost exclusively speak spanish. his ex was mexican as well and spoke spanish, and i think they're disappointed that im not her.

i feel so unwelcome in my home, his home, work. everywhere. i feel like i don't belong. i just feel like everyone would be better off without me because i seem to ruin everything, even though i know realistically im not doing anything wrong and it's a them problem. i know im not a bad person, but it's times like this that i don't know if i believe that.