I’m tired boss

6 months in, I have some interviews next week for a final round with a bunch of senior people who’s job titles feel like Elden ring bosses.

I just don’t care to prep or anything anymore. I’ve gotten to the final round and 2nd round earlier this year studied 6 hours a day and failed miserably. My stories may come out bad or I might freeze in the interview but I just don’t have it in me to study. Surviving one round of interviews just to be beheaded round 3 feels like your fight or flight never goes away and to be stuck in this for months on end is horrible.

You know when you start fantasizing about what this could do to you? Then your heart starts beating fast and you feel a little dopamine? That won’t get you nowhere so stop doing that.

This suckss, feel like a walking zombie I’m not even depressed over it anymore just empty. Anybody else feel like this ?