22 yo with sissy fetish!

Hey there since 13 ( puberty ) I got aroused by watching a boy to girl makeup video in youtube and got aroused by it ..after that i decided to crossdress and felt really good and aroused and this is how it all started...till 19 I used to fap by dolling up as a cd . Imagining myself as a girl and I get aroused..

After 19 I started watching sissy porn and this unlocked a whole new part of me..I started chatting with men...posting pics and got lots of appreciation and msgs from men..and I used to fap and then get regrets on it...by this time I'm still attracted to girls but never had a gf or text from girls....I'm a shy and introverted guy...

And this stuffs continued and I got more deep into this stuff and finally lost my virginity with a man after I dolled up fully as a girl and I loved anal sex . I loved being submissive to him ... And I didn't feel regret too..and then we did it again second time....it was the same feeling....

I'm asking now if what should be my future like...is this normal or is there no return for me need advice!! Thanks