Is d4vd finally admitting he ruined Celeste's life? he also mentions burying someone alive

\[Intro\]  
My girl, my girl  
My girl, my girl  
  
\[Verse 1\]  
Take me back to what it was (Ooh)  
Back before I fell in love (Ooh)  
It's a blessing  
It's a curse  
Second-guessin' myself only made it worse  
I'm the reason that you're hurt  
Hurt  
  
\[Chorus\]  
I wish I could be there for you like I should  
But I ruined your life  
You loved, you cared  
But I wish I wasn't here  
I ruined your life  
  
\[Verse 2\]  
I didn't then, but I know now  
The things you hide behind that smile  
Every moment that we shared  
Oh, I wish I wasn't there  
I buried you alive, but[](https://genius.com/D4vd-someone-like-u-6-lyrics)

\[Chorus\]  
I wish I could be thеre for you like I should  
But I ruined your lifе  
You loved, you cared  
But I wish I wasn't here  
I ruined your life  
  
\[Bridge\]  
I'm not that hard to let go  
I'd be alone, but I'm used to it  
What could possibly go wrong?  
You're not that strong, but I'm used to it  
Hey  
  
\[Chorus\]  
I wish I could be there for you like I should  
But I ruined your life  
You loved, you cared  
But I wish I wasn't here  
I ruined your life  
  
\[Outro\]  
I wish I could be there for you like I should  
But I ruined your life  
You loved, you care  
But I wish I wasn't here  
'Cause I ruined your life

D4VD - RUINED YOUR LIFE (UNRELEASED)