genuinely, how do you live if you can’t get help

I don’t have the ability to see a psychiatrist, or get a therapist. I have been raw dogging life and it’s genuinely beginning to take a huge toll on me.

I think that I am a worthless, disgusting worm that cannot contribute anything to society. I am burdening those around me, and I CANNOT get up.

Everything makes me anxious. Going outside is overwhelming and gross. Talking to strangers is fucking impossible.

How do you get a job? How do you not hate yourself and think you’re dirt because you made a mistake? How do you seriously not spiral from every social interaction?

I am so tired. I wasn’t made for this kind of world. I just want to go to sleep lol