Hyper sexuality and bad decisions

I (21 F) was recently diagnosed and experienced a really bad manic episode a few months ago. During this episode I made a lot of poor decisions, I lashed out at friends, got myself arrested, and worst of all cheated on my perfect boyfriend. This episode happened before I got my diagnosis and started taking the right medication and seeing a therapist, everything that happened during that episode is what made me decide to see a therapist.

The guilt and shame of cheating has been eating me alive. It’s not something I ever could have seen myself doing. I know hyper sexuality is a symptom of mania, and I’m wondering anyone else has cheated while in a manic episode? I’m not trying to make excuses for my actions at all, I take full accountability and responsibility over it. I’m just looking for advice and to know if anyone else has dealt with similar experiences.

Please do not judge me, I know what I did is horrible and unforgivable and I’ve lost my boyfriend and best friend over it. I know I deserve the judgment but I’ve just heard so much of it and really just want advice and to not feel so alone in this