I’m back for a redo

I tried to hop off cold turkey at sbout 360 mg a day and went 24 hours a few times and failed. But I started making small changes. I went from dosing three times per day to twice per day, cutting my habit down by 1/3.

It actually helped me feel the doses more even though I was taking less because my receptors weren’t flooded quite as much so when I took a dose I felt it more and lasted longer.

So now Ive cut down a been more. Take 80 mg twice per day with some Kratom. I have a little bit of mgm left and I did something bold. Instead of buying more mgm to continue the taper, I bought Psuedo (7oh is banned in my state).

I think bridging the gap between mgm to sober with Psuedo will be more manageable. Less receptors and all that. Also have nearly 5 gs of SR for after I get on pseudo that will hopefully work better than it did when I tried to CT off the MGM. Side note I truly think that Kratom leaf is stronger than mit extract. Maybe more secondary alkaloids.

So here I am. I lost the battle but have found some dog in me to continue the fight. Tapering and switching to pseudo will allow me to make a lot of smaller changes over a longer period of time ensuring an easier route to my goal. Cold turkey is a rough experience. Of course it can seem attractive to just get it done “quickly” but with the long half life of mgm there isn’t anything quick about it.

I read a post the other day that it took someone 11 days to sleep after CT. While that’s fucking impressive they handled that I am not as confident in my own ability to do that.

Just checking back in with yall.