Pata hai aaj kya hua?? Bohot akela feel hua humesha ki tarah..has ab thak gaya hu akele reh reh k??

Pata hai aaj kya hua?

Tonight, I was eating alone at a restaurant, which isn’t unusual anymore.

I accidentally spilled my Coke all over the table.

For a second, I looked up expecting someone to laugh and say, “Bhai, tu bhi na…” or help me move things out of the way.

Then I remembered.

There was no one sitting across from me.

And somehow, that hurt more than it should have.

I used to have friends. People I’d call when life was good or when everything was falling apart. Now, even when I try to reach out, it just doesn’t feel the same anymore.

I moved to Hyderabad hoping for a fresh start. But office se ghar, ghar se office… bas yahi routine reh gaya hai.

I got promoted recently too.

I stared at my phone thinking who I should tell first.

And then I realized… koi hai hi nahi.

No one to celebrate with.

No one to say, “Proud of you, yaar.”

The funny thing is, I don’t cry about it.

Main bas chup ho gaya hoon.

I go to movies alone. I eat alone. I have conversations in my head that I wish I could have with someone else.

A spilled Coke shouldn’t make a grown man this sad.

But I guess it wasn’t about the Coke.

It was about realizing that I miss having people in my life.

And I don’t know how to survive being alone. I’m so scared..