I stopped taking my meds for maybe the 3rd time. I don’t know why I am so stupid, and I hate myself so much right now. (TW: SI)

I’ve been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety and Social Anxiety Disorder.

I’ve never quite felt like the meds have done much for me, but they definitely give me sexual side effects, make me tired, and decrease my appetite. I don’t want to write off meds at all; it’s just my dumb self thinking I can do without them and that maybe my problems are only due to a troubled upbringing.

I guess I’m just looking for anyone who has experienced dumb judgment like me, and how you’ve moved forward. I’ve made so many dumb mistakes, and I just don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I’ve been unemployed since April 15th, and my dumb self decided to stop taking the meds on the 30th because of the side effects. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Luckily I live with my parents, but I really don’t know how much more I can take. Everything wrong in my life is my own doing.