please help me

I know that taking the mark of the beast is bad, and I absolutely do not want to take it. The problem is, my brain keeps making me say "I want to take it" inside my head. The more I try to avoid the thought and fight it, the more it keeps bothering me.
I got so scared because I think I just said it in my head. Now I am spiraling and deeply terrified that I have done something terrible, even though it goes completely against my actual beliefs and desires. so somone please help me if i did or not im really terrified