Does anyone else count the hours until they can go to bed

I lost my Mom on March 30th 2026. I struggle daily with lack of motivation. I find no joy in anything I do. I find myself just waiting for bed time. I have a 7 year old, and I am struggling so bad to be there for her. I find myself laying on the couch while she plays alone, I will close my eyes and doze off. The weekend is hard bc she doesn't have school so I try to keep her entertained, but it is so hard. She has 1 more week of school and I'm dreading the summer break. I tried forcing myself up, but I'll be able to do 1 task, then need to lie down again. I hate this depression. I just wanted to put this out there to see if anyone feels the same.