I got into a stem phd at stanford and im still my families biggest disappointment

Some of my extended family will literally not allow me in their house, and they all talk shit to me about my """lifestyle""" and why do I choose to disappoint them etc etc while praising my stupid violently homophobic cousin who works at footlocker, dropped out of community college, and still lives off his mom, and yet im the one told im better off dead. he will always he better than me just for being a real man and i will literally always be an embarrassing disappointment no matter how successful I am.

I came back home for the first time in years my family would have chilled out, that they'd he impressed with why ive managed to do so far with my life on my own and could begrudgingly overlook the 🚉🦵 part, but that was obviously delusional of me. I can never be anything beyond that to them.