I am forming my escape plan.

He would never intentionally physically hurt me

But his face and his pain and the tone of his voice will cause me pain that I just can’t take. That’s why I must get the hell out.

I am going on sabbatical.

Dog - I need him with me - hardest of all my decisions. Fuck I don’t know. But def during the escape.

But I can lay eyes on him for 3-6 months. I will break again.

The money. Am certain about it. But how? Mark.

Someone to talk to - Karen??

He knows I am off but William is the reason. And Maybe that’s all it is. But I need to go to this place if planning my escape right now bc it gives me home gif better.

He called a woman a cunt in front of my house yesterday.

At the other house, he threatened to call the police on my neighbors.

He had good reasons but his actions and words and feelings and voice are all too big for me. It makes my stomach hurt. Along with many many foods.

My gut biome is fuckrx up as well so you know, that’s another explanation

I do not want to hurt him. I feel him too deeply now. His pain is too big for me. I am an empath. It will rip my guts out.

That’s way I need to go somewhere for a few months. With kozmo.

Or I can trade Kozmo thru an intermediary who truely doesn’t know where I am.

I do love him. But he is ripping my guts out.